Thursday, April 29, 2010

A visit to my sister

I went to visit my sister today. I am sorry to report that she has had another relapse. She has lost the weight she had gained. She told me she wasn't eating again. I feel like we are back to square one. She has no desire to leave or even try to get better. She worries about things she has no control over. She worries that her children are not being taken care of. She has two children in college and one that is 14 yrs old and still living with her cheating, cruel and terrible husband which as someone commented conveniently forgot the part in the marriage vows that say in sickness and in health.
Also he is the reason she is sick now. We had a long talk....4 hours and most of it was about her finally coming to the terms that yes indeed he is a jerk. I am glad she realizes this. My parents tried to help her, but she could not see past the part about being true to her matter what.
I feel bad for her kids. They had to grow up in that household with their father being cruel and hateful to their mother. And now their mom is in a mental hospital with no hope.
I tried to encourage her the best I could. She mentioned that her doctor was trying to get hold of me so that I could take her out for a few hours and go out to eat or shopping or something. I told her just to let me know and I would come and we could do whatever she wanted to do.
I feel caught in the middle to an extent because I feel that the doctors should know that she is not eating. She tells them that she ate at the coffee shop. When in reality she is just not eating again.
Not sure what to do because if I do tell them....they will tell her I told them and then she won't trust me anymore.
I want to be there for her and help her in any way I can. But right now she has her mind up that things are never going to change and that she is just going to stay there for the rest of her life. She is only 50 years old.
She says there is no reason to get better because she will never have a car, a job or any reason to be out.
I wonder if they have changed her medicine....or maybe she is not taking it again. You know...pretending to and then spitting it out.
I miss my big sister. I wish that I would have known all this was going on. I would have MADE her leave him.
He is still having an affair with a married woman. He is still married to my sister.
He is the type of guy who is a charmer and everyone thinks he is a good guy....he isn't.
He does not have me fooled.
It's been a long day.

Monday, April 26, 2010

look it's me!!!

Hey everybody! How is everyone doing? I sure miss seemed so much easier to write more often. Anyway..
What is the world have I been up to?

Rick and I are doing great! We still have Sadie Marie and she is for the most part the joy of our lives. She recently bit me, but my finger has healed and she is getting more discipline now. No more sleeping with Mom and Dad :). I think she feels bad about it. Really!
Rick just brought in the mail and I got the latest truck bill and my Good Housekeeping magazine!!! Can't wait to go out on my deck in my new chair and read it!

Eric is doing great! He still lives in Austin and is working there. He lives with his best friend Chase and wife Amy. They split the bills three ways. All three are working so it works out pretty good. But I think this will be the last year. Eric needs his own place. There have been times where he has gone grocery shopping and come home to find it all gone. Also the same with the cleaning situation.
Amy does not cook or clean. Neither does Chase....
Anyway Eric is the Daddy of Sadies pup Shelby who is already big as a horse now. She is a doll and so sweet. They come home for visits often.
We have been going fishing some. Need to plan another trip soon.

I might be going to Arkansas for a week to meet one of my friends I met online. That is a book in itself.

My sister is still in the hospital and I am wondering if she might be there forever. She has no motivation to get out, she said if she does she is going to stop taking her medicine and I think she is better off there. She also said she would go back to not being there with the rules is best for her right now.

Her husband has filed for divorce and is trying to get custody of their son and child support...what a moron.

We are still dealing with the estate stuff. Yeah

I am just trying to take it one day at a time.
My new routine is Going up.
Get up early
Make up bed
Wash up
Look up..thank God for each day and ask for his guidance
Eat up healthy food
Dress up every day even if I never leave the house.
Read least an hour a day
Sing often as possible
And most important....NEVER GIVE UP!!!!

Ok that's about it for now...going to go read my new magazine and enjoy the beautiful day!

God Bless you all and never forget me! xoxBarb