Sunday, June 29, 2008

Mom

I would like to start this by saying Thank you to all of you who have been praying for me and my Mom. 

Rick and I were  suppose to be on vacation this week.  We had reservations for 9 days in Port Aransas.  I was worried because I knew Mom was not well.  She was diagnosed with Liver Cancer in May of 2007.  She struggled with all the trips to the doctor for chemo.

She lost all her hair and then got it back.

She was so excited that Rick and I were getting away for a few days of fun in the sun.

Wednesday morning June 18th she woke up in terrible pain.  So bad that she called her neighbor and asked for her to take her to the doctor....but not to tell me she was feeling bad.  She did not want to worry me.

The doctor sent her to the hospital for tests.  Cat scan and such.,  They found that the cancer was progressing.

The neighbor called to inform me of what was going on.

I went to the hospital and when I walked into the room Mom got upset and wanted to know why I was not at work and shouldn't I be getting ready for my vacation?

I told her I had canceled it and she got very angry with me and insisted that I call back to reschedule to trip.

I told her I would later and she said....now.

By the next day she found out bad news from the results of the test.  The doctor told me that there was no more treatments her body could withstand .

And not to leave town.  I canceled once more.

The doctor said that we had two choices. Hospice in a home or to come home and take care of her with the help of Hospice as needed.

It was a rough week.

Mom slowly got worse.

At one point she told me no more medicine.

Then she stopped eating.  Hospices was called in for 24 hour care.

She slept alot.

After two days of not talking or opening her eyes I walked in the next morning and said....Good Morning. She opened her eyes and smiled and said...Good Morning!

I almost fell through the floor.  She seemed so much better and alert.

Then she asked for Rick.

She asked him. "Where am I?"

He said that she was home and we were taking care of her.

She sighed and gave a disgusted look and went back to sleep.

Many times she said she went to Heaven and was mad that she woke up and was still here.

Last night I couldn't go to sleep.

Finally I decided I should try.

I went in to say good night and she was awake.

The nurse said she was declining.

I asked her if she wanted me to sing her the same song as I sang to Daddy and she moved her eyebrows up and down....which meant yes

After I finished sing Somewhere Over The Rainbow to her she took 2 more breaths and left for Heaven.

She passed away at 1:00 in the morning.

I will miss her quick wit and funny jokes.

I will miss her smile.

I will miss her wiggling her eyebrows.

I love you Mom.

You are with Daddy and Christi now.

 

I will miss you so much.

16 comments:

am4039 said...

Barb, I'm so very sorry. I cried when reading this. You have had so much on on this year. Many hugs blessing and just want to let you know Im thinking of you.

Love Marla

buggieboo1 said...

Barb, I'm so very sorry. I cried when reading this... {{{Barb}}}.

Sharon

ukgal36 said...

wow..tears rolling down my face...over the rainbow has special meaning to me too...it was Mums choice of song for her funeral...
I am so sorry for your loss ..may you find comfort in the knowledge that your Mum is where she wanted to be...what a beautiful thing...
God Bless...
Lyn
http://journals.aol.com/ukgal36/Britsblog/

lifes2odd said...

Barb, I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Love and hugs, Martha

nolefan38 said...

I am so sorry for your loss, will be praying for you and your family......... hugs and love, Sherry

chat2missie said...

I am so, so sorry!
Missie

lsfp1960 said...

Oh Barbara, I am so sorry to hear about the passing of your mom.  I'll be praying for your family that our Heavenly Father will bring comfort and peace during this sad time. Hugs ....Linda in WA

xxroxymamaxx said...

Honey, I am so sorry.  My thoughts and prayers are with you.  You are very strong to have been there with your mom through that.  I know that is a memory that you will cherish and remember forever and ever.  I hope someday my children can be with me the same way.  It just seems like it hasn't been that long since your dad went.  Maybe she didn't want to make it without her man.  They are together.  That's a sweet thought.  Love you, Shelly

tpiez4me said...

Oh Barb....I'm so glad you were home with her.

"She sighed and gave a disgusted look and went back to sleep. Many times she said she went to Heaven and was mad that she woke up and was still here."
I had to LOL at this because I can just see her look of disgust - and understand her being mad.  But God knew you needed to have time with her before she went home, so he kept her waiting.
 
Barbara dear....you have been so very strong this year.  I hope that you and Rick can get some time alone, away very soon.  

Hugs, love and prayers to ya!
Sharon

momiscool2 said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your mom.

I am praying for you and your family.

Love,
Michelle

cuteallison1980 said...

I'm was crying as I read this.  It is so sad to lose someone so close and that gave birth to you.  I know someday I will have to endure what you have had to.  My heartfelt sympathy goes out to you and your family in your time of grieving.  You can take solace in the fact she was there when you were born into this world and you were there when she was born into the eternal life.  My prayers go out to you to get through this time.

Allison

lisa41076 said...

Awwwwwwww hon I am so sorry, Love You Lisa XO

randlprysock said...

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<Barbara!!!!!!!!>>>>>>>>>>>>>
I am saying prayers for you all....
Lisa

fasttrack58 said...

Oh Barbara... I am so sorry.... I am so crying right now....
You have had such a rough year... I only want the best for you... I know your mom is now with dad and Christi... It's you I worry about... Tell Rick to give you a big hug for me....
Love you...
Linda...

emabecmar said...

((((((((((Barb)))))))))) I am so behind in journals. Been catching up all day. I am so so so very sorry for your loss. You know my thoughts and prayers are with you girlfriend. And yes your Mom is up their with your Dad and Christi.
Love ya,
Cindy xoxoxo

browney44 said...

Blessing to you and your family.   I am so happy you where there to see her off on her next wonderful journey.  

debbie