Sunday, October 8, 2006

October 8 :(

Happy Birthday Christi!  You would be 39 years old today.  I miss you so much!

We had a great childhood together and I wouldn't trade a minute of it.

It will be 4 years since you have gone to Heaven on October 22.

I wish you were here to celebrate your birthday.

I hope the angels sang you a special birthday song.

I miss you and will always keep you close to me in my heart.

Life is so different without you.

There is a light that has left.

But you would be angry at me for that so on I shall go.

I will live for the years you missed.  I will love unconditionally, and I will laugh and smile for you.

The tears still come my way when I think about you being gone, but I know you want me to be happy, so I will be.

So here is a poem for you sent to Heaven from Earth.

Having you around me

All of my young days

Probably is the reason

People see my light along the way

You will always be my greatest memory.


Because of you, I sing

I know that you can hear me

Remember that I love you

Today and for always

How I long to hug you

Dreams bring you close sometimes

And we can be together

You travel through my mind.

Christi, you are my guardian angel now

How safe I feel

Remembering the good times

I love you, ever still

So as I say goodnight to you

Talk to me in my dreams

I will be waiting to see you again. 

This is also the one year anniversary of the day that we lost Jacob.  He was in a motorcycle accident one year ago today.  He went to meet Christi on her birthday last year.  I am sure she met him at the gate and made him feel welcome. 

I miss them both, but it helps to know that they have each other.

God bless you all and remember to take the extra time to be with your family because, you never really know how much time you have.

Christi got sick in May and was gone by October.

Jacob was perfectly healthy one minute and gone in the blink of an eye.


Live, Laugh, Love, Hug, Phone, Write....whatever it takes.................


lisa41076 said...

Barbara, I'm so sorry you lost a good friend.3 years ago on  Nov 14'th my good friend Patula was strangled and killed in S.F. She was a beautiful girl and only 30, I miss her every day, Love You Lisa XO

queenb8261 said...

I know you miss your sister so much.  Those are some great photos.  Happy Heavenly Birthday. Christi.
Hugs, Barb  

am4039 said...

this is just beautiful and brought tears to my eyes. I am so sorry. What a loss. I know Christi was a wonderful person because you are and your family. Hugs and love.

siennastarr said...


I am so sorry for the loss of Christi and Jacob... You are so right about letting those you love know how much you do, because tomorrow is promised to no one.  What a beautiful tribute to her...


ally123130585918 said...

I am so sorry for the loss of Christi and Jacob ~ you have such treasured memories of them both ~ and they will live in your heart forever ~ Ally

mosie1944 said...

Since Cliff's open heart surgery, he and I are both very much aware that today is all we have.  Our enjoyment of one another and of life has been very much increased.

mawmellow said...

 beautiful tribute to heart goes out to you and your family.  I define loss as "it doesn't get better but it does get DIFFERENT" ... as the years pass .  
Love you !

robinngabster said...

I know you miss her Barbara....take comfort in knowing the angels ARE singing to her today.   She is so beautiful I am sure she helps light up heaven!  xoxo  Robin

fasttrack58 said...

A very special Happy Birthday to Christi.....
and special thoughts for you my friend....
Linda :)

firestormkids04 said...

What a beautiful tribute to your dear friend and to Jacob.  You are so blessed to have such wonderful memories.  Many blessings, Penny

rbrown6172 said...

may God be your peace and joy throughout this day.  a wonderful tribute!

aljes12 said...

Love and prayers and arms around you Barbara on this day.


randlprysock said...

Someday we will all get to meet Christi in heaven but I know it doesn't make it any easier right now.  Thanks for sharing this entry and these precious memories dear Barbara.  You and your sister look so much alike.  I have heard you mention her in previous entries and I know how much your sister meant to you and your family.  Big super huge hugs for you sweet friend.

emabecmar said...

So sorry for the loss of your 2 loved ones. Yes I do believe Jacob was met at the gate by Christi. God Bless. (((((((hugs))))))))

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plieck30 said...

Christi was a beautiful girl. I don't remember her but I do your Mom except I remember her with very short hair and I don't know who Jacob is, your nephew maybe? I know you miss them both very much. A beautiful tribute, Paula

pharmolo said...

Hope you had a good day on Sunday, remembering them both


xxroxymamaxx said...

God bless you Barb. Big hugs, Shelly

tpiez4me said...

What a sweet tribute to your sis.....bless you my friend!

mtrib2 said...

I enjoyed seeing your family photos.    It is heartwarming to read about your devotion to your sister and how much you miss and remember her.    I sorry to read that Jacob died one year ago.   I am sure that your faith is what helps you to heal from your loss.    mark

nana0014 said...

Beautiful tribute. So sorry for your loss.
Take care, Chrissie