Thursday, March 9, 2006

Not A Good Day

Today I had to do something I hope I NEVER have to do again for the rest of my life.

 

I had to go to the funeral of one of my close friends that commited suicide.

 

He left a wife and four children.

 

I was so distraught that I could not breathe.

 

After the burial ceremony I went off on my own and could not stop crying.

 

 

I looked up and saw the most beautiful orange tree surrounded by hundreds of blue butterflys.

 

Two of the butterflys were flying together nearby.  They flew over to where I was standing and flitted about around my head.

 

It felt like a sign from Christi saying she was taking Sam with her to Heaven and everything would be alright.

 

Suicide is not the answer.  Living is.

 

There are so many sick people with diseases that hit them in the prime of their lives and they have to leave behind their children and spouses.  They would LOVE to have their lives back.

 

Do not take your life for granted and do not take your own life.

 

Sam was only 44 years old.

 

Pray for his family.

 

Barbara

 

 

 

16 comments:

jckfrstross said...

I am so sorry Praying for the family

Deb

mikev009 said...

My deepest condolances.  I've had close friends die and I have had close friends try suicide unsuccessfully.  It is NOT an experience anyone should go through.  Take care of yourself.  ~ Mike

buggieboo1 said...

HUGS Barbara
I am sorry for the loss of your friend.
So sad for his wife and children!

Sharon

am4039 said...

I will Pray and I wish I could hug you when you were crying. It's awful. My best friend did that 15  years ago in May.  

lv2trnscrb said...

my pastor's wife said suicide is not an unforgiveable sin (being if you were saved before you commited suicide you didn't lose your salvation by committing suicide) but she did say what it did to those you left behind. Such a terrible thing to have to live with as the survivors; the guilt, the wondering, etc.

(((Barbara))))

betty

randlprysock said...

Hi Barbara...
So sorry about today and how gut wrenching this is for all.  Keeping you and this family in my prayers.
Lisa

mosie1944 said...

I'm saying a prayer right now.  What a sad situation.

stansgirl2004 said...

OMG how awful. What could have been so bad that he would end his life? I will pray for his family I am so sorry for your loss. Biggest HUgs, Marina

eternallife23 said...

This is so sad. It is so true there are so many people with problems and they can't find the peace that they need. I know firsthand how this feels. I am sorry for your loss. I will pray for the family.
*Louise*

aljes12 said...

I'm VERY sorry Barbara, prayers to you and his family. No suicide is NOT the answer and I thank you for sharing his story and the value of life with us all.

- Jessica

sylviam4000 said...

Very sad to read this Barbara. Suicide isn't an answer, it's the result of mental illness. He must have been through a private hell to do this. Feel for his family and friends, it's a terrible situation to come to terms with. Thinking of you.
Sylvia xx

trickeytricky said...

I am so sorry to read this, I think it is absolutely horrible that someone could do that to his family. I will pray for them that is for sure.

Take Care!

Amanda :)
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queenb8261 said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your friend and for the loss his family must bear. I am glad that you were given a sign.  Will say a prayer for you all.
Hugs sis, Barb  

fasttrack58 said...

I am so sorry... It will be two years on St Patrick's day since my dear friend left us. I miss her so much...
Sending special hugs!!!
Linda :)

lifes2odd said...

Barbara, I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. Thoughts and prayers for everyone involved. That is just so sad. Martha

valphish said...

I am so, so, so sorry, Barb.  I hadn't heard about this until tonight.  This is terrible.  ((Barb))  I will keep the family and you in my prayers.  Val xox
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